Hope Is everywhere ,and your not going Anywhere!

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Wow... Time has flown by .... looking back at my old posts have helped me remember that special feeling again. where words would just flow out ,and everything was perfect. I'm not the only one remembering those good times. (back noise: J listening to old H.S. Raps) but as i look around i start to notice not only has my life flown by but the problems of an adult are starting the phase me. Yes... those dreadful fuckin bills.... and that dreadful remembrance that Death is near everyone. 2008----- I grew....I Don't Want to Grow UP so Fuckin Fast. Spend Xmas ,and all the holidays with her. thats my main goal. my Priority!.... Spend Moments of bliss with her before life pulls you away ,and you find your self not remembering those moments ( main fear) ..... explain to her that her cooking is unique....her laugh ( turns red ,and forgets to breathe) is the most entertaining laugh you've ever seen. the way she signs her name makes you proud of her. the way she stills talks about the day she left you in school and forgot to pick u up is still the scariest yet funniest story you've ever heard. how growing up she made every thing so simple. coffee always freshly made before school ,and work. her home made remedies made you feel pure. her wrinkly skin makes you wish that when you grow up to be just like her ,and more. Spend Christmas with her ,and don't forget to tell her she means the world to you.

I LOVE YOU ABUELA!

“The best answer to anger is silence.” Estonian Proverb

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Everything's so blurryAnd everyone's so fake

And everybody's empty

And everything is so messed up

Pre-occupied without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone

You could be my scene

You know that I'll protect you

From all of the obscene

I wonder what your doing

Imagine where you are

There's oceans in between us

But that's not very far

Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When ya shoved it in my face

This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing

There's noone left that's real

To make up your own ending

And let me know just how you feel

Cause I am lost without youI cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds youI stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone

You could be my scene

You know that I will save you

From all of the uncleanI wonder what your doing

I wonder where you are

There's oceans in between us

But that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought

Nobody told me what to say

Everyone showed you where to turn

Told you where to runaway

Nobody told you where to hide

Nobody told you what to say

Everyone showed you where to turn

Showed you where to runaway

This pain you gave to me

You take it allYou take it all away...

This pain you gave to meYou take it all away

This pain you gave to meTake it all awayThis pain you gave to me

...Was it something I said? ...

"Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let's pretend we had one. "

3 Months of Chaos......

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"Insanity is my only means of relaxation”---Anonymous

ONe cOLD.... mANY Dreams

It's how you make me feel.... wonderful weekend.... ... not even a weak cold could bring me down.... back to happy place... back to the reason why i am so in love... Remembered why .... its how you make me feel.... unconditionally , sweet, peaceful, and blissful.... i will no longer wonder .... it's how you make me feel.... excited...obsessed... eternally blissed... can't wait , one day...... one day..... till then sitting back and watching the magic happen.

ITS HOW YOU've always MADE ME FEEL!!!!

Where the FUck HAve u been?

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Modest Mouse:Missed the Boat

While we're on the subject

Could we change the subject now

I was knocking on your ears

Don't worry, you were always out

Looking towards the future

We were begging for the pastWell, we know we had the good things

But those never seemed to last

Oh please just last!!!!

Everyone's unhappy

Everyone's ashamed

Well we all just got caught looking

At somebody else's page

Well nothing ever went

Quite exactly as we planned

Our ideas held no water

But we used them like a dam

Oh, and we carried it all so well

As if we got a new position

Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell

Saying yes, this is a fine promotion

Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell

Of course everyone goes crazy

Over such and such and such

We made ourselves a pillar

But we just used it as a crutch

We were certainly uncertain

At least I'm pretty sure I am

Well we didn't need the water

But we just built that go god damn

Oh, and I know this all myself

I stood in front for all the people

Oh, and I know this all myself

We listen while life's singin'

And the sound of life's sweet bliss

Was it ever worth it

Was there all that much to gain

Well we knew we'd missed the boat

And we'd already missed the plane

We didn't read the invite

We just dance at our own wakeAll our favorites were playing

So we could shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

Tiny curtains open and we heard the tiny clap of little hands

A tiny man would tell a little joke and get a tiny laugh from all the folks

Sitting drifting around in bubbles and thinking it was us that carried them

When we finally got it figured out that we had truly missed the boat

Oh, and we carried it all so well

As if we got a new position

Oh, and we owned all the tools ourselves

But not the skills to make a shelf with

Oh, what useless tools ourselves

Eventually...

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I'm a slow motion accident

Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints

I don't wanna feel anything but i do